DECEMBER

December 7

I was scheduled for a 11:00 am appointment  Radiology at Roosevelt Hospital.Katie my best friend in the whole world(also my roommate,adopted sister,and the second mommy for my dog)was with me. There was some paper work mixed up,and some getting into the wrong building,but we made it on time.Waiting is something I'm having trouble with,but these weeks i learned to control my legs,sit still at least for 3 minutes,than switch my legs around.At noon a nurse came out saying "there are complications with a patient before me"-so if i want to go get something to eat i can. Great we thought just what i wanted to hear that a poor woman "dying" on the table where i will be laying soon.I couldn't eat much.We went back in 30 minutes and i was called in.Katie had to go to work,i told her i call asap.And there i was in a little dark room,i recognized the ultrasound monitor(duh it's going to be a ultrasound guided core biopsy).I was shaking so bad ,i wasn't mind to lay down on that table.The nurse was awesome,kind of bubbly.She  told me whats going to happen,and that i be ok.Than the doctor came in,he checked the area ,put my right arm above my head,and there i felt the first numbing shot just under the skin,and the second in the deep tissue.What can i say not pleasant. 

I was grabbing the blanket they put on me with one hand ,and my foot got its own life at this point.I saw the whole process on the monitor right front of me.I saw the huge at least 6 inch needle entering my body,and not feel a thing ! Awesome it's like watching a horror movie and be part of it at the same time.Than i heard that awful clicking sound when the needle take out samples of the mass.Doctor took 6-8 samples,he said i was bleeding more than i should. Than he put a tiny 'clip' on the site of the biopsy and take out the needle.2nd part was next.

The axillary area needed a biopsy too(my armpit) same process but more painful like pressure feeling.The nurse was right next to me holding my thigh.I felt light headed,and i couldn't feel my right arm,it went totally numb.I was sleepy and started to stare the sealing .I was singing in my head that song from Moulin Rouge 'come what may' .

Whatever these people done to my chest was in a fog now....i thought wow my life is changing hour to hour,and I'm not even in control at all.When they finished i had to sit up.It was a challenge,only because my head was spinning do to 4 full loaded anesthesia shot.The nurse said hang in there girl,and snapped some sea salt under my nose,throw some wet towel on my head,and now i felt bubbly and giggly.I was on the table for a hour and a half.My knees were shaking like jellies when nurse said i have to go for mammo right now just to see all ok in there.After that i was let out in the wild world.

I had to walk next to a wall so i don't get hit by a car. Called Katie right away poor girl, i scared her a lot ,as i still can't remember what i was saying to her for a few minutes.

In the next days i looked like a abused victim.My chest area went from bumpy to lumpy,from blue to purple,to yellow.I had cramps, very short but intense.Felt like those needles entered my body again.Sucked ....a lot!